Friday, November 23, 2001
OK LASTEST BLOG, well, notice..i will be onli9ne 11 pm saturday (my time ) and liekly, 12 noon your time, sunday.
hope to see you....on icq
sang by |Elpida
- 8:57 PM.
guess you're noit in....:((((((((((((((((((( no words can exopresss my deep sadness
sang by |Elpida
- 8:55 PM.
yes, i do love you too sze....but i think leng deserves love too....she earned it
sang by |Elpida
- 8:55 PM.
i missss you ppl...you better be in town and free in may.....2002
sang by |Elpida
- 8:53 PM.
missed by bout 13 minutes....sigh.....crossing everything that can be crossed...pls refresh the screennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
sang by |Elpida
- 8:53 PM.
omigosjh!!!! sze i just got online.....argh...
sang by |Elpida
- 8:47 PM.
Well our finals are finally over. Thank goodness! I am dead hungry now - skipped breakfast this morning to rush to the hall for my final CG paper. And the burger stall's closed so Yuyin (one of the college buddies, Leng's room mate) can't buy me my favourite "Kung Fu" burger (yummilicious burger with mash potatoes and black peppa sauce) and I can't leave my room because I am waiting for you Debbbbbbbb... I hope I read your blog correctly, which means that you will be online right about now.. (it's 12.27pm Saturday afternoon)
But where art thou?
My tummy's churning like a lawn-mower now..... Yearghhhhh...
Yes His-old-haggard-Majesty had passed away. (dead is not too proper I guess for a royal)
Good for his wife. Poor gal. But heck, now she gets to re-marry. :)
sang by sze
- 7:35 PM.
Why don't you love me?
(feelin' pretty depressed now...I thought we had "something" together) :( :( :(
sang by sze
- 7:18 PM.
LENGALENGALENG!!!!!
i just love that girl!!!!!
sang by |Elpida
- 11:27 AM.
sze!!!!! i hope you'll be online 24/7 now...i'm on thnkasgiving break now...i'll be online friday night (your saturday morn inthink) or what time is good for you?? maybe your 12 pm/am, i don't know the time change anymore, so amybe if we wait around for +/- an hour. we'll be sure to meet....then i 'll ell ou what i think about your fasting experinece...pretty strange huh? i fasted b4 too...
sang by |Elpida
- 11:27 AM.
wshat@!! sze who's dead? the king? which king?? as the the DYMM Agong?
sang by |Elpida
- 11:24 AM.
Thursday, November 22, 2001
Click here for my story.
P/S: Deb, read it and comment ya?
sang by sze
- 8:43 AM.
Wednesday, November 21, 2001
So I am fasting today.
Yeah, I know it sounds crazy but I am just going to experience what's like to fast for a day with the Muslims. No food or drink from 5.30 a.m. which is about now (dang!) until 7 plus this evening... I know it's nuts, but I guess in a way or two, this is a awfully good way for me to live the true "malaysian" life, that is to understand other races' culture as well.
If you ask me, I love living in Malaysia and love being a Malaysian myself. The rich culture and various races mixed together in one big melting pot... (or is it salad bowl? no it's not!) Well, anyway, I think the new generation of Malaysians should reflect this richness of culture in 'em anyway. I don't see myself totally as a different race by its own. I was born here, and I love it here (though I don't agree on how more than one or two things are being run here e.g. the education system etc)...
And if you ask me if I could stand on 'til this evening? I really don't know. I hope I can. :-)
P/S: (My friend told me if I cannot stand the hunger, I can try the apprentice's option first, that is I break fast at 2pm - for lunch that is! - instead of the full period... just like when small kids just started fasting) hehehe
sang by sze
- 1:48 PM.
everyone grows old and it is not unpleasant at times. about memories and rememberance, i think it's more of a personal thigney...ppl will remember you according to how much they thoguht about you in your lifetime. i think. i'm doing a semester long project for english. each class member has an elderly person in which we interview. at the end of it, we are suppose to write the life story of that person. it's difficult, esp. when the ppl in your story are well alive and real. Not everyone write/records down their life story,,,,so the ones my class and I am doing right now will probably be a legacy for thier grandkids/children...that's the tough part....to be true in the tale, or write it according how you see them in your eyes- every adjective carries so much weight...how would you like ot be said to be "wrinkly", "white haired", "angry","peaceful looking", zealous"...some of them of Over and some true, but hurting....
ah leng is hardworking...if i had my duffus post erased last minute, i would dump te whole computer...
sang by |Elpida
- 7:52 AM.
The King is dead.
Shall we mourn for his widow?
sang by sze
- 1:35 AM.
Tuesday, November 20, 2001
Uhhuh.
sang by sze
- 6:08 PM.
People may care about me.. but not for long.
Yes, I love to think and ponder of my very existence - just not really about this stuff of existing in others' minds. But I have always prefer to be the one looming, lurking in the background. I do not want to stand out in any way. It just isn't me, and I will not change that.. just yet, I suppose. We never know. Talk about change...
Ugh. These three days of staying in uni, with no classes, doesn't sound appealing to me - yet, I'm still here.. with a handy book too, thank goodness - and not The Multimedia Pavillion. My friend was holding the book since the moment she woke up.. right up until now, in the evening. Sigh. As for me.. I'm currently reading Raymond E. Feist.
And rocking to Incubus. Mmm. Don't I wish you were here, at 11am, walking in circles.. nice to know you. Bwaha.
Monday, November 19, 2001
Leng: You can post anything you want in the world and nothing can change any fact in your life. And yes, people do care about you and the others in this world, don't be so seclusive about that. Remember what your lecturer said about you? ;-) It's true... read on:
You ponder about your existence in this world, don't you (don't we all?)? Well, you only exist in people's mind and lives if you want and make the effort to do so, otherwise, yes, you will only be fragments of what people can remember. There was some sorta Native Indians' saying about, 'a thing only lasts as long as people can remember...' and it's just so true. History gets erased after people dish their memories away. And to quote a line from a movie, 'History doesn't erase memories, people do'...
Anyhow, what I am trying to convey here is that, you never really get neglected or ignored in this world unless you yourself want it (in another words, you don't take efforts to see that you are not ignored)... So show your presence and people will care no matter what... sometimes it doesn't show, but seeing is just believing and not explaining (remember this quote, it's from X-files, and I carry it like a totempole) and what you don't see sometimes doesn't justify what really is. :-)
Think about it. Ponder at your own sweet time. You will be alone no matter what in this world, but as long as you still live and connect to others, these fragments of memories of you will prevail until the last person remembers.
sang by sze
- 9:21 PM.
People grow.. don't they?
I mean, not just literally, but in a different sense as well, a much higher level of understanding towards it. Sometimes, people grow to be better person and sometimes, vice versa. I can still remember the times when we see how our friends in highschool changed because of certain things that affected their lives, i.e. highschool pathetic politics, being in the parameters of 'cool', redefinition of lifestyle and fashion... so many of these conforming parellelism running along our lives, moulding and redefining our preconception about the world we live in.
How many times do you ever feel compelled to 'follow' someone else because you are too afraid your offbeat ideas wouldn't make a mark in the common mass. Deb: I still remember that e-card you sent to me not too long ago about being a leader.
It takes one lackadaisical step to be like the others, but it takes the whole humanity to be like somebody different.
And yes, people do grow. Literally and analogically (if such word exists).
Erk.. I was writing a really long post when it somehow disappeared while I was helping a friend with something.. damnnit.
Anyway. I haven't been making my appearance here, I know - because I didn't have much to write about. Not that anyone cares anyway. :)
I hear someone groaning. "Why oh why must Li Leng associate her blogs with music?"
The reason is, I don't really know why, either. Maybe music lives for me. Or I live for music. Whichever.
About four years back, whenever someone asked "Who is your favourite band?", I would reply immediately, "Savage Garden". "What other CDs have you got, besides them?" "Er, none." I had the opportunity to watch them live with my very own eyes: it was the first concert I ever attended. I was fortunate enough to strike up a brief friendship with Darren's (the lead singer) wife. Back then, they seem to be my obsession. Oh dear...!
Fast forward to today: ask me that question, and I would reply with a bit of hesitancy at first, then ramble on, "Savage Garden.. Third Eye Blind, Matchbox Twenty, Coldplay, Travis, Sugar Ray, Incubus, Lifehouse, Linkin Park, Train.." In short, I don't seem to have one favourite band anymore. My music interests have broaden - although I have to admit that they are still confined to the modern rock and alternative genre. There's always something about guitars that appeals to me. How I wish I could have my hands on one!
In fact, just the other day I was listening to some music, when a guy asked "Whose collection of mp3s is this?". I replied blankly, "Mine". He replied, "Hm.. good choices.. nice guitars..!" Needless to say, I was beaming.. bwaha. It was nearly five years ago when a similar conversation happened too.
So did I, or did I not, change?
It would be odd to find me swaying to the mushy rhythms of 'N Sync or Backstreet Boys, or to the melodic, wailing voices of Destiny's Child or Christina Aguilera, that's for sure! Hm.
I'm sure this post makes no sense at all.. but what the heck. I seem to be good in rants.
One page to read. Three post-high-school girls. Unlimited topics to talk about. This is what brings the girls together, no matter the distance. They speak their mind and occasionally rant and share about life, music, college, technological jargons, socials, bad spelling and recipes.
Deb Lim http://thirdtimearound.blogspot.com
Currently residing in Grand Rapids, MI and studying some complex sounding course in Calvin College, USA. English Guru, but alas, her spelling often contradicts this fact. Nutty ever since her brain was messed up by Sze. Reads literature. Inspiring person to be with. Often incoherent yet thinks that this is a way of being creative. Perhaps she's right. You tell her.
Leng aka Jedariel
Quiet and introvert may be how she appears to most, but this is the ultimate trivia queen who rants relentlessly on well... trivial info. Rock music lover. Matrix-o-holic. Reads fantasy. Prim and proper. She thinks she is evil, but let's not believe her. Ask her just about anything in this world, and she still has an answer for you. Currently pursuing her digital design dreams in MMU.
Sze Ying http://szync.port5.com Non-conformist - or so she thinks. Designer wannabe and pseudo geek. Gung-ho but world class procrastinator and lazy bum. Jazz lover. Talks endlessly. Often corrects Deb's spelling on purpose to irk her. Used to sit next to Deb and messed up her brain. Needs moolah desperately. Be kind to her and hire her for any graphics job. Currently studying to be an animator.