Thursday, June 06, 2002
I am planning to go to school either on next Friday or during our mid-term break to get my SPM and O Level cert... anyone game to follow?
sang by sze - 6:05 PM.    

I wouldn't go to a different high school for anything, but neither do I like SAB. I think the only reason why I wouldn't change the school is because, thru the horrors (I plead aggravations) and unjust that I saw and recieved, it made me think more, and evaluate. I made my own stands. Out of the negative comes a greater impact. However, SAB also gave me little, or no room to grow. It did not encourage me to, rather it repelled me. I grew because I did not like it. I DID however, grow as a result of INDIVIDUALS, some teachers and students. SAB to me is a education system, and therefore, not 'individuals.'
and I guess, after all that torture, one would justifiy their being there (psychology...)
Know what I hate most? SAB doesn't realize students are people with a BRAIN that can actual (reallllly) think. They treat us as kids that won't develop and mature. They take, but do not nurture. Heck, they do anything for the sake of getting soemthing that they can crow about. I respect very much the teachers that believe in an education for life (Anidah,etc) and stay there. If they don't, well, SAb cannot exist. Well, now, what I have said here gives a reason to SAB to not like me, anyhow. Unfortuantely, no matter how muct I blabber, no good might come from it, after all, who likes to be insulted, when in each person's eyes, they are the ones that will go to heaven, if anyone was to go to heaven (research results). But that's just impatient me.
sang by |Elpida - 4:40 AM.    

Tuesday, June 04, 2002
But I like highschool. I despise some of the rules and certain people or system, but overall, I kinda like the place. I don't know why, perhaps I don't share the same feeling as the way you guys do. For example, I won't mind going back for the Sukan (sports day) for as long as I can afford the time. Or reunions 10 years down the road. Or gatherings. People create the environment, I truly believe, and for as long as you and I think that because they won't bother or give a damn, we should follow their lead, things will never change. Well, Deb mentioned something truly important in her blog that explains the case in point. That we should start thinking and analyze the situation... Probably, instead of wondering why we never really bonded well in school because of the system or whatever it is, probably the apt question to ponder is how much have we contributed to the welfare of others so that we actually bonded. I love the place. Highschool brings back lotsa good memories, and I am not about to feel bad about it because of some bad system or bad ppl - in which points to a certain someone by the name J... or Z... oh well we all know ;) ... Somehow I feel lost and displace in uni because I can't find the same enthusiasm that goes around in a smaller crowd. Perhaps I should just grow up. :) You know how slow growing up can be.... just my two-cents worth.
sang by sze - 10:33 AM.    

Database Systems is not interesting to me at all. I can't make head or tail out of it, and the thought of drawing those many diagrams just doesn't seem to sppealing. But then again, I think I would actually have a preference for it if I can really make an effort to struggle and be more attentive during those long lectures - and perhaps also if the lecturer doesn't speak with a thick Thai accent.

Moving on. We all have our own blogs. Yep, but that shouldn't deter us from stopping to blog in here. I mean, we're still keeping this place alive. I check in here everyday, but I just don't have the urge to blog here than I do elsewhere. However, I think it would be much livelier in here if only more people would blog in here, rather than just the three of us. Unfortunately, I don't think the blogging trend has quite catch up among those former 5B2Kians, who are most probably studying their butts off doing C++ and all. After all, the more, the merrier.

I read Deb's comments regarding Sze's previous post and realise that she's almost repeating what I had written about in my blog a few months back, touching on the issue of friends..... I feel no need to elaborate on that further because I can relate to that.
sang by Jedariel - 9:57 AM.    

Monday, June 03, 2002
Somehow rather, I feel that the lack of postings here is due to two factors:
1. Everyone in here already owns an active-blog somewhere else.
2. This website doesn't have any coverage, nobody comes in to correspond with us; hence the lack of urge to post.

I think if we are still serious about this, we can do something about it. I think first of all, we should increase the interactivity. Add in more ideas. Top up with creative anecdotes instead of adding one-liners or what-I-did-today-was-boring stories.. Since it's a one-step-down-memory-lane thingy, we should talk more of what we can recollect about highschool. I am actually quite sad that Going Places didn't work out. I wish it still did. But what the heck! Let's keep this place more lively.. C'mon guys!
sang by sze - 6:00 AM.    

It is. And so I am not about to let it happen. So today, I tried so hard to concentrate on learning Database System - something not of my cup of tea especially when it comes to computer language. But it seems that I am getting more light-bulb moments in the lecture even though I didn't quite finish reading all the prior lecture notes.. heh. Database system is actually quite interesting, at least I think it's so much better than learning Physics, but I need to get all the command rights and learn how to script the right stuffs... This new trimester, I am like a whole new person because I feel so lazy and yet I keep telling myself that I cannot be lazy or else I will slack, and it works (at least more than half the time!) because nowadays, I really feel the urge to want to know more more more more... I want to change!!!!!

I think I am still in my get-fat regime, but somehow, due to my poverty (I am really officially broke), I can't help but to skip a meal or so each day. I feel so hungry now... :( Dinner was just 3 packets of peanut-butter biscuits and cold water. Now, don't I sound like that poor, poverty-stricken heroin in some fictional novellas? :) Yeah, heroin cuz I am gonnnnnnna go places.... Carpediem!
sang by sze - 5:56 AM.